Hosea 14:3 "in you the fatherless find compassion"

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Just Beautiful

I drove to Milton today to meet with our kid's case worker to FINALLY see a picture of our kiddos! They are absolutely adorable! Blond hair, and looks like blue eyes. The pictures weren't that great of quality but it didn't take much to notice their beauty! It was an amazing moment to finally see what they look like!
We also found out that we had been given the wrong date of birth for our daughter, and she is actually 5, and will turn 6 at the end of the year! Sounds even better! And get this, our son's birthday is ONE day after D's! So cool!
Brett still hasn't been able to view the pictures, and the case worker wasn't able to print them out for me, but we hope their foster parents will be able to e-mail us some pictures soon, or better yet, we will be able to take pictures ourselves of all of us! Word on the street, is that we MAY get to meet them this weekend! We are reaaaaally hoping that works out, but if not we will continue being patient! Or should I say impatient.
Brett still has to wait in suspense to even see them! It's so hard to know we were matched with our kids, and we can't even see their faces, or touch them. It is such a weird feeling. You just hope they're safe, healthy, and happy while we wait to know they are safe in our home.
The case worker said that they are very excited to meet us, and when they saw our video and the scrapbook I made them, they just lit up! That made me feel so good, because I didn't have to see anything to just light up knowing they are ours. We love them already. We will keep everyone posted about all the stuff going on over the next few weeks. We hope to have them moving in with us after they finish the school year! That would be PERFECT timing for everyone! We can't wait to share them with all of our family and friends, and let them realize how loved they are and have been, before they were ever met!
GOD IS GREAT! Thank you Jesus!

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Mother of FOUR...

Today, I woke up, and flipped our yearly scripture calendar to April 5th. It read, "May you be given more and more of God's kindness, peace, and love." I thought, Wow, I don't deserve any of those things, and yet I'm still praying for all of those daily, but especially today. God is so righteous! He continually blesses us, yet we are so undeserving! Ah, The Author of Love, sure is a great teacher!
Then I headed to MOPS which was great as usual, besides my stomach being in knots, feeling anxious, on edge, and just ready for answers! It was kind of like being in labor since December and waiting for the last few minutes until new life. I couldn't stop looking at the clock, not to mention checking my phone for calls and waiting to see when Brett was going to drop off a hungry little "G". Well, time went by and still no word. I called my friend Laura hoping to hear something positive and of course she was, although I was definitely starting to worry...well at 12:35 PM today I received a phone call... As I got nervous and instantly felt like I was going to be sick to my stomach, I answered. It was the case worker. Of course, they can't just come right out and say "You were chosen", no, that would be to easy, and save me from trying not to puke (sry). Instead, they do the build up, gradual, drawn out words, and then, "We thought your family would be the perfect match for these kids" Ahhh, Hallelujah! Praise God! I am now the mother to four blessings! I would go on to tell you how beautiful they are, and how you should go to our FB page and see pictures, but no... we still haven't even seen their innocent beautiful faces! But I know they have blonde hair! Native American heritage with blonde hair? Their case worker was just as taken back as we were when she first met them, but God plans it just the way He wants it! He knows exactly how many little blonde hairs are on their beautiful little heads. We are SO excited! Each day we have something to look forward to. Tomorrow, we may get to see pictures, and maybe this weekend we can meet them?!!? This is just an amazing journey! I can't wait to share what the next few weeks holds for all of us. We can't wait to start our lives as a complete family, and show them how amazing God is!
Brett, "B"-6, "S"-3, "D"-2, "G"-8M and I!

Monday, April 4, 2011

One day down... one to go...

17 hours to go! Today went by reeeeally slow, and I found my mind wandering. I kind of felt like my brain was in Candyland playing on Chocolate Mountain while I was trying to be in good Ol' Pensacola! We stayed busy! Brett was supposed to fly today (but didn't due to bad weather), and I had a play/mom date with Laura and her son with the boys. So, all in all... it was a good day! Just kind of feeling like my stomach is in knots, and I'm just ready to know! Good or Bad, we want it done, so we can either move on as a family of 6 or a family of 4 and planning on the next pregnancy... I'd rather do the first BUT it's in God's hands, and what big powerful hands those are! So this blog is just specifically asking all of you to pray for us as we go into tomorrow! Rejoice with us if it is good news, and if it is news that we didn't want to hear just pray for the healing of our already somewhat attached hearts, and for the journey we will continue to embark on! God's will be done! Thanks everyone for your prayers, and WE CAN'T WAIT!!! S and B, we hope you are the ones!

Counting hours...

I've taken the weekend off from writing on my blog, only to wish I hadn't. Now that is it the week I can think of tons of things I want to share. So, ofcourse, Friday came and went and we didn't hear anything. So, Friday I was saying, "Next week IS the week!" Well, to keep busy we decided to attend the Children's Festival at UWF, and it was a blast and had some really cool things for our youth to do. At this festival was the agency that we are waiting on to hear any news. The Adoption Specialist gave us (Us, and our friends that joined us) a nice warm welcome, and the first words out of her mouth were, "Tuesday, the staffing is Tuesday!" Ahhh... music to my ears, We have a date! Whether it turns out being good news or bad news, we can't wait to know! After waiting for this date for more than 3 weeks we can't believe it is finally here! SO, as I wait tomorrow at MOPS (Mothers of Pre-Schoolers) I will be an unfocused, mind-racing, scatter brained Mother of a Pre-schooler hoping to add another Pre-schooler, and school aged child on to our beautiful list of two boys! But I couldn't think of a better way to stay busy the last few minutes we are waiting on this call!
Sunday, at Point Baptist Church, we had a great sermon on who the Author of Love is... and knowing I can love because He first loved me, just makes me say, WOW! I can love these children, whom I've never seen, never touched, never even saw a picture of... but we love them...because we have the ability to love because God first loved us.... Thank you Lord, for being able to experience this joyous feeling! It is a love you can't explain in words, and to think You feel this way about everyone! EVERYONE! You love them for who they are... You love the abusers that led these children to possibly be ours, so that they may know You one day! AMAZING!
It makes me want to dance! Hopefully, I will be rejoicing tomorrow knowing that we now have four beautiful native american children, 3 boys and a girl... just sounds perfect, but it won't be perfect unless it is in God's plan, and I understand that. So, if it isn't in God's will, than I will overcome my sadness with the simple thought of God has other plans for us, and these children! I am excited... I just can't wait!
Last night, I was already having trouble sleeping... I can't imagine what tonight will be like! I know Laura can agree with me when I say, You really start to dream about what you think your children will look like, or who they are, and what they're doing and if they are safe?! Mom's do stuff like this! It's hard to keep a level head!
Children are a blessing from God! and with us the fatherless will find compassion, and I hope we get the opportunity to love these children and lead them to knowing our God!
Mark 10:13-16: "People were bringing little children to Jesus to have Him touch them, but the disciples rebuked them. When Jesus saw this, He was indignant. He said to them, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it." And He took the children in His arms, put His hands on them and blessed them."